Trouble Sleeping

There are nights when I want to stay up forever.
this might be one of them,

I laid in bed fantasizing, each new vision
excited me more for life than the last

this was how I met you
stories not shared with the children,

this was our vacation,
events not captured on camera

this was the story you wrote me
how ensnared, I was, waiting for the next chapter

this was how I kept you
how grateful I was for that

this is how I remember you
on nights like these, my memories never seem to let up.

I wonder how many words I will use to describe us,
How many battlefields created and on display,
How many body parts torn asunder,
How many emotions spilt to waste away

Yet are we not entangled still
With your word, my mood can change as well
With your smile my stomach stills
With your hug my day is brightened

They still describe us,
Us as in inseparable, though separate we’ve been
They still note our calm demeanor
And awe at each comforted gesture

And don’t the phone calls mimic their words?
Aren’t we better off in concert
Though with claws we sometimes grasp
Do we not still hold each other’s hearts together?