The way the notes come together in dissonance, warmed sad-melodic
Is the way my heart finds you- missing
The brief subconscious thought sends signals and sends search parties
Finding nothing shallowly hidden in my chest cavity (nor immediate vicinity), a brief ringing alarmed despair
This is the part ears call jaw-line and eye brow to cringe at,
Met with remembered headlines
Things Have Changed-She’s far away, tensed shoulders
Longing from my diaphragm, spine crisped, eyes focus on the distance
Though the muscles of my back have braced for impact
my brain can’t comprehend the time and mileage
–and it curses itself with lack of logical understanding,
Find comfort somewhere more ancient, that distance
and minutes are not the true separation,
The heaviness sets in.
Heavy like anchors (will have to be)
Heavy like hoof kicks, the breath of certain horses
Heavy like an oxytocin addicts miss, and
Heavy like knowing that, I’ll still miss you tomorrow.
And I want to write that I’ve never truly been alone,
knowing my heart lied in the hands of others,
my thoughts always on their songs,
my truest hopes, on their tongues.
Ripening with time to bitters’ sweet -my heart laments
such beautifully sad songs.
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